Half A Glass Of Water

Posted April 24, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

we sat drinking
the milk of lions
and smoking argila
way past midnight
the curtains drawn
the candles burning
outside, the curtains were drawn
Baghdad is burning
do you see the glass
half full of water
or half empty?
I asked
I don’t see the glass!
one said
I don’t see the water!
another intoned
we all laughed
I mean if I were holding a glass
with some water in it
would you see it as half full
or as half empty?
would you be giving me the water?
the poet asked
yes!
then I will see it as an uninterrupted
flowing fountain of bliss
a blue ocean
a cleansing rain
washing away
incertitude
and making
between my toes
hope spring
to life
to life
we all echoed
and downed a shot
I’ll keep a picture of it
he continued
in my mind
and dream of it later
when the sun
announces
the day murderous
and reality claims
me
as one of its straying
sons of Iraq
but …if we were two
we would fight and kill
each other for the water
and you would end up
drinking it
by then, it would be
blood red and murky
we heartily laughed
at his gallows humor
because that’s all
there was to laugh at

Woman

Posted April 24, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

Looking at you I thought
to myself
there is a mesmerizing magic aura about you. 
I am captivated
by the delving intensity
in your hypnotizing eyes.
It’s sweet!
It’s so sweet! 
The symmetry of your features,
the natural flow of your beauty
defies description.
It’s new.
Oh! So new.
God’s upgraded creation.  
The soothing vibe in your voice
lulls me
cajoles me 
Your lips conjure more sanguinity
than a speck of land in a blue desert. 
In this chaos,
you seem to be a centre of gravity
giving balance and bearing to humanity. 
It is hard these days to come across a woman.
that summons unwavering beauty and altruism.
I wanted to talk to you longer,
get to know you better.
But all that came out was
“sorry”
as I bumped into you
while you’re talking on the phone.
Will I ever see you again?

There Has To Be A Child

Posted April 21, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

I walk along
graffiti streaked T-walls
in Baghdad thinking…
there has to be a reprieve
for a heart that shuns
the hatred 
there has to be
some crumbs of happiness
leftover here somewhere
some love
some crackling
good-hearted laughter
left here somewhere
to subdue the barking
of the guns
and the stomping
of the boots
the horrors of war
could not have seeped
into all the cracks
of every wall
and every soul
a child somewhere
still remembers
between every
gut wrenching
cry and cry
how to smile.
 
but, look here!
you see boot prints
on doors kicked
into broken homes
these rooms
their walls are splattered red
they contained the screams
of agonizing men
and yes! the laughter
of maniac terrorizing men
it’s not the laughter I’m looking for
it’s not the laughter I’m looking for
within these T-walls
dividing the city
and garroting the life
out of it
we have achieved peace
and buried the peace
of mind and the sanity
the innocence
the laughter
the love
the tender smile
there has to be
a child somewhere
still remembering
between every
gut wrenching
cry and cry
how to smile.

The Ambulant Shoe Shiner

Posted April 21, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

He tumbled in with his disheveled hair like weed.
His angular body slouched from the heavy bags under
his bleary eyes.
He seemed in need.
Half a filter-less cigarette dangled from his lips
like consumed harlot breasts which had long
surrendered to gravity.
He IS in need.
Grimly trudging through the plaza
between tables upon which were perched blind patrons
tossing bread to pigeons,
he tapped his shoe brush on the wooden shoe shinning
box in staccato. 
Tap … tap tap … tap
Tap … tap tap … tap
Never looking at faces,
just feet.
Looking for leather shoes.
In his shoe shinning box, he had polish
for all shoes: brown, black, and transparent,
but none for local shoes.
He avoided the locals like a disease
he didn’t have yet.
The locals ignored him like a reality they refused to see.
They know his type.
He sniffed glue and dealt kif to hippie tourists.
He looked at my feet and pointed at them
with the shoe brush insistently, meaning:
Mister, you seem to have come from afar.
I know our dirt when I see it
and what you have on your shoes
is not ours.
I can shine them for you.
I signaled to him that yes,
he can shine my shoes
while I’m drinking my cortado
and reading my paper.
There is nothing wrong
with helping this fella
earn a living.
He squatted down and
put the box before my feet.
The sour stench of stale sweat
filled the air.
I put a leather shoe on the shoe
rest and watched him go at it like a pro.
How’s it going? I ask.
Up until this morning, we are stilled mired
in intellectual and economic poverty.
We are on our last leg with one foot in the grave.
And we are only in our teens.
Our feet are shackled by
laconic
hollow
Rhetoric of distant
politicians and
intellectuals who,
from their surreptitious way of life,
amusingly observe
the mass in their morass.
Refuse change.
Change!
Change!
Change!
Change foot, mister.
Students, ordinary government employees, unemployed
university grads, and the likes of me striving in our surviving,
the nose barely jutting out through the surface of an ocean
of shit
generated by decades of fruitless
economic plans upon which we were
to start a family,
build a future,
find happiness and
peace
of mind. We are drowning, mister.
His head did not look up once.
His hand did not stop running the brush once.
He only talked once.
Limpidly.
He tapped the box.
He finished.
I paid.
A light breeze blew.
He rolled with it.
Tap … tap tap … tap
Tap … tap tap … tap
 
I stood up and walked to a trash can.
It was filled with newspapers.
I tossed mine in with the rest of them.
And walked away through the pigeon
turd crusted plaza
in my freshly shined shoes.

The Harbinger of Death

Posted April 19, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

I stand looking
across the dusty street
at the cinderblock walls of
her humble timeless dwelling
swept by desert sands in
need of a more peaceful
place to amass
and speckled by shrapnel and bullets
whose crackling sound
I can still hear
if I put my ear against the wall
the slugs lie where they dropped
like dead flies
like dead people
the rusty metallic front door
whose chipped green paint
faded long ago
sometimes the wind would rattle
I see her as she
finally comes out
clad in a black abaya
the hardness of her face
tampered by a mercurial smile
her eyes squinting against
the perfidies of the world
as she walks past drivers
hailing potential customers
blurring into a background
of people adrift in their own city.
 
don’t venture down those ominous
ways
I warned
don’t thread into that austere
city
the harbinger of death was here
and I heard your name called
dearly

Ishtar’s Bad Hair Day

Posted April 16, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

The first sad look today is
in my cracked mirror.
Today is a good day for a
sassy
short
hair
cut
that would show my almond
gazelle eyes and sensual lips.
I need something to accentuate
my beautifully pronounced
features and disguise
my not so many flaws.
What I need for this bulky
coarse hair of mine
is a cut using
graduated
layers.
To create added texture,
I need the
ends
chipped
and razored.
I need Hathem with his
feminine bold “touch.”
His metallic clip-clipping scissors
and warm running fingers
send quivers down your spine
long after the leather seat
is cold.
 
But these luridly repugnant
long bearded men from another
time ambled into his saloon
and said they disliked his tune.
Ludicrous!
They shot him in the head
turning his hair red which
didn’t go well with his complexion.
 
A thunderous boom outside
my window.
I look back into the mirror.
My face acquired a new crack.
What a sad look I have today.

Close Your Eyes

Posted April 12, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

Take a deep breath.
Close your eyes.
Imagine you’re at a sandy beach
in San Diego or Miami …
You can feel the heat of the sun
on your oiled skin and thinking
about how beautiful your tan
is going to look makes you smile.
The sound of crushing waves tickles
your ears; it’s a special, soothing sound
unlike any other anywhere
in the world; you can hear its crescendo
from the distance and then it ends
in a soft roar as it spreads on the sandy beach
not far from where you are lying.
Despite the heat, a soft and cooling breeze
touches your skin like
the invisible hand of a longing lover.
Every now and then, a few voices break
your silence reminding you that you are
not alone here. Up in the sky, the shrieking
of a seagull does not seem foreign at all,
and unlike the voices, does not bother you
as much. With your soft fingers
you touch the warm sand … its dry crystal grains
easily slip through your fingers and drift away
with the wind.
You take a deep breath and think
the pristine ocean water will soon
cool your body and refresh it.
You taste its saltiness on your lips. 
You know you are happy
because you are part of the sand,
and the ocean,
and the sky.
Now,
take a deep breath.
Breathe through your mouth.
Open your eyes.
Don’t succumb to the chaos.
Don’t step on a blood stain
that’s larger than your foot;
you might slip and fall.
A sniper could pick you up
through his scope.
Don’t stand so tall. 
Pick an arm here,
a leg there.
A head flew somewhere
unknown;
it’s unfound.
Some soccer playing kid
will kick it in. 
Bowels are the worst.
The stack of body bags is there.
Tune out the wailing
of mothers, wives and sisters.
Don’t console the crying
of the sons and daughters.
Don’t look anybody in the eyes.
Don’t try to mend broken lives.
Visceral anger will soon bubble
through the surface vexingly.
Cry! The salty tears will
tighten your stomach.
It’s ok to cry,
but just with one eye.
Keep an eye open
for a possible second suicide bomber.
If you feel you’re about to puke,
go to the side,
take a deep breath,
close your eyes,
huddle in a corner of your
mind,
and imagine …
you’re at a sandy beach
in San Diego, or Miami,
and not in baghdad.

The Witness

Posted April 11, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

amidst the dead,
those waiting to die,
its height surpassing
the crossed swords,
the ziggurats,
overlooking the Tigris
flowing red and
the xeric landscapes
beyond its banks,
an even sadder
palm tree stands with
its palms shredded
by gloom,
its trunk blackened
by the dried blood
of children spilled
by demoniac extremists
who eulogize the fallacies
of contrived divinities,
by nefariously obsequious
politicians effusively
touting ostensible
policies while insidious
jaundiced knowledge
looms menacingly.
Amidst this dying
world, an even sadder
palm tree stands
its shrinking dates
like diseased eyes
witnessing nothing.

So Easy!

Posted April 11, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

it’s so easy!
it’s so easy!
fear comes barging in
so easy.
and death!
crisp and guileless.
it’s so common now.
it’s such an easy sight.
recalcitrant children
wrinkle their noses at it
and walk on so easy.
to get kidnapped.
and to never be
seen again.
so easy.
for courage to abate.
before this persistent
madness, for faith
and hope to become
second rate.
so easy!
to loose the history,
the family,
the life
in this ramshackle cluster
of laughter, of tears
in the folds of this
easy daily violence.
it’s so easy.
to cement the little pieces
of this broken life
by fear.

The Folly of Being Human

Posted April 11, 2008 by Ahmed Thomas
Categories: Drift Generation Poetry

You don’t know how it feels,
she deadpans while standing
naked by the window looking out
into a Baghdad
shrouded in a ragged reddish
mourning dress of dust.
I stretch naked on a mattress
half covered by a wrinkled white
sheet sullied by the sweat of our
sexed out bodies.
A long black hair wriggles on the lonely
pillow we shared. The pillow I used
to strut her pelvis as I thrust into her
on and on, holding her by the throat.
The pillow she bit into as I straddled her
pulling her hair as she writhed from
pain and pleasure.
Ever since her husband and son were
killed in front of her,
ever since she was kidnapped
and raped by the killers for days,
she found herself
craving rough sex.
She takes a long drag from her
Menthol cigarette. Her beautiful
breasts heave as the Muezzin’s
call for morning prayer warbles
through streets begrimed by trash,
over a city crumbling from lash after
unrelenting lash of this war,
through the carcasses of
eviscerated souls
refusing to be reincarnated.
She flicks the cigarette through
the window.
She puts her clothes on.
Do I get to see you tonight?
She turns and looks at me.
Then she smiles before she
disappears into the city’s
monotonous violence
as the night slowly ebbs.
Soon the relentless sun
will embrace the swaying
palm fonds as they stand
ready to witness yet
another day in the folly
of being human.
Of course I don’t.